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How I Got Lost, Drenched and Found in the Mountains

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(How I Got Lost, Drenched and Found in the Mountains) On Tuesday, I jumped in my truck and drove north to marinate my soul in nature. So much family and business action this year has been exhilarating and also left me in need of recharge.

When I reached the red hills of Sedona, I stopped for a new pair of hiking shoes. I chit chatted with a master guide there about how we both chose to be business owners for the freedom, but we don’t take enough time off to enjoy it. (Though, he leaves 4 months a year just to hike, so he might be doing okay :)

“Well, this very day, I am making progress,” I declared, as I scooped up my new kicks off the counter.

He responded, “Sedona is a great place to manifest change” and stared at me square in the eyes.

The words hit me hard. Like in the center of my chest hard, and I carried them with me on the highway as I drove.

I pulled into a hiking area in Coconino National Forrest and started my way up West Fork Trail and was immediately surrounded by colossal red rock that engulfed me like an ant. Green trees towered all around– juniper, pine and aspen.

The air smelled like happiness.

I was in instant ecstasy as I trekked alone up the trail, passing people here and there, exchanging friendly hellos.

While I hiked, I thought of something I read in the gift shop back in town.

“Learn the lesson and let it go.”

This year had given me incredible perspective from deep experiences that had been miraculous, and sometimes painful.

I knew to leave everything in the past & take only two things:

GRATITUDE and WHAT I HAD LEARNED.

If you want to move at a rapid pace, there’s no other option but to travel light (mentally, emotionally.) But I hadn’t let everything go — I carried some worries, a few regrets and a tiny swatches of dense emotions.

As my feet pounded up the hill, I wanted each step to stamp clear any residue hiding in the inner parts. I stepped with intention to have ALL OF ME CLEAR and clean in the present.

I crossed the stream that wove itself all throughout the trail, and hopped on my toes from rock to rock. On the other side of the fresh water, I found new trails, more birds– so much life.

The mountainous stood stalwart and hadn’t moved in thousands of years.
The rain or scorching sun could beat down– or a fire burn the surface (and it has) — and they’d just go with it.

They were built to recover. They would use whatever came and grow life again.
A silent monument of acceptance — acceptance of what comes and a reminder to treat life like a process, not an amusement park, teaching travelers how to live and how to die.

About three miles into the hike, it began to rain. I adored it (at first.) I stood under the shelter of a tree and watched water polka dot the dirt around my shoes, waiting for it to pass. After twenty minutes or so, it became obvious it wasn’t going to clear, and I headed back the way I came.

Soon, the sky grew darker and in 2 minutes, I was soaked. Desert monsoons, aka summer rain storms, can be fierce and nothing to mess with. It’s Arizona’s only claim to actual “weather,” and it’s a good one.

As the downpour increased, I sped back quickly to the entrance. The once semi-populated trail was now barren and I hadn’t seen a single soul for at least 30 minutes.

Still, I felt safe and peaceful, and was thoroughly enjoying my adventure until I was about half way back, and the trail I was following appeared to be swallowed up by the rising stream. (Let me jump in here to say that David is not happy at this point in my story, and in case you’re concerned, know that he’s done due diligence to warn me about hiking alone.)

No trail. Now what?

The sky had dumped the entire belly of it’s contents on my head and I was so wet, I might as well have walked right out of a swimming pool. My back pack was soaked all the way through and my once protected cell phone has seized during it’s warm July bath.

And have I mentioned that I am geographically challenged?

I pulled out a plastic orange “I’m lost in the woods whistle” that I bought at the sporting goods store with a chuckle the night before, thinking I would never EVER use such a thing. I laughed at myself as I blew it but, the sound didn’t carry far through the wall of water in the sky, plus there was no one around to hear me anyway. It was useless and I felt ridiculous so I put it away.

No trail, no phone, no people. Hmmm…What to do?

Pray, of course. (Always phone home when you’re in trouble.)
Soon, I had a gentle inclination — “stay here, people are coming.”

So, I waited.

I waited for 5 minutes.
Then 10 minutes.

The sky grew angrier and flashed with lightning.

My mind had the thought “it might be time to worry.”
It had now been 45 minutes since I had seen another human being.

“They are coming, wait by the stream…” I felt the simple instruction again and chose, very purposefully, to do what I was told — wait — and keep a clear head.
(screw you, fear, you hear me?)

In another 5 or 6 minutes, they popped out of the brush and emerged at the edge of the stream.

Four. Glorious. Beings. (imagine heavenly music playing) A silver-haired couple, about 60 years old with walking sticks; a beautiful black woman in her 20’s and a shirtless, energetic man with curly hair and athletic build.

I shouted at them from across the stream and they invited me to come over and hike back with them.

You would have thought we were long lost friends at a planned reunion. The wild and wonderful circumstances in which we found each other had wiped out the walls we usually have with people we just met.

Micheal, was an actor (no joke) on his way to Hollywood. He had been on Blacklist, many national commercials, and on the CMT series, Sun Records, to name a few. Heidi told us about her cancer and I could see how strong (and stubborn) she had been about her choice to fight for her life and win. Chelsea was an opera singer in grad school in Oklahoma, contemplating her future path. She and Micheal swapped stories about breaking into the music business (his life before acting.)

We took a group selfie on the bridge and shared a cup of hot tea on a couch at a nearby cafe that had a stunning resemblance to a grandmother’s cabin. There were books, board games, a piano, an old record player with a gramaphone and two fireplaces.

But no inside bathroom.

So I changed into dry clothes in the “employees only” room at the back entrance (door locked) and I’m pretty sure I was the first person to be naked in there next to the pots and pans.

Turns out Micheal had escaped for a few days to the mountains because he had been working too much, felt he was out of balance and was taking some time to get back to himself.

As I listened to another person put words to the exact thing I was experiencing, I realized the long string of spontaneous gifts this day had rolled out for me in eloquent sequence.

I came here by myself because I needed some time to rejuvinate, but I wasn’t alone. The hiking guide clued me in that changes were coming. The mountains taught me to let go and live a cleaner, simpler life. Inspiration taught me how to wait when I think I’m in trouble and watch for the answer on it’s way.

And new friends reminded me that connection is everywhere. The world is kind, people are loving, and life has my back.

Stay open, say yes, and steer hard into what matters most.

I felt smarter than I did in the morning,
and lovelier as a human overall.

Here’s a picture of the area. It wasn’t taken by me.
My pictures (and past) were washed by the rain :)

PS. If you’ve been texting me, I’ll have a new phone on Tuesday.

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God Is On My Side

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God gave us an earth that was unfinished so we could work with what’s here and in the process know our powers as CREATORS.

I know of nothing else (except parenthood) that shows us how strong, capable and un-bendable we are inside.

Your goals want you as much as you want them.

The universe has your back.

Things are working for your good, even your so called, “set backs.”

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Who Do I Want to Be?

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We get at least a hundred opportunities in a single day to ask ourselves:

WHO DO I WANT TO BE?

Do I want to be love, abundance, forgiveness, present, Spirit-centered and in Divine flow? (or all kinds of other ways)

Today, we make the choices, and in the days to come — life will show us how we answered.

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Stay Steady in Transition

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One of the reasons I love the sea, is that it reminds me that everything comes and goes.

Life is always changing. A situation comes today, and by tomorrow it’s over. That was the deal–the way this was set up.

We, eternal beings, would be placed on a planet where everything was constantly in motion. A thousand things a day would come at us–some of them difficult and confusing–but all of them temporary, while we searched for happiness, and survival.

What would we do? How would we respond?

The flow is always coming, and another going at the very same time.

While I sit here in front of the ocean, I have the thought of two years ago when I went through some really hard times. I can’t remember much. The details are so faint in my head now. The one part I can remember, is thinking that I was going to die, the pain was so intense sometimes.

I didn’t die…. [ to my surprise at times]

I just kept living. I couldn’t die, it seemed.

I’d fall into bed exhausted, and the next day would tap on my shoulder and wake me up wanting to me to live it. Day after day, new opportunities came to learn and integrate that learning into my being.

I am so saturated in happiness now, I sit in wonder often at how all this came to be.

As the waves roll in one after another, no end in sight, I am looking for the pattern, trying to pin point how I got from there to here.

I remember that in each life situation that came rolling in, I would look for my own center–Even if it tumbled me, I was looking to grip the ground.

In everything, I asked God to walk me through it.

I let go of blame and anger and looked for the fastest entry point to peace.

I always had to take that exit alone, getting rid of the story of “everyone else,” –what they said, what they thought, what they did — blah, it only weighed me down.
Christ–who is the God of my understanding–WAS my tour guide. It was His voice I looked for; His presence, and I could find it every time I silenced the world and asked him to meet me.

A while ago, someone asked me how I got to be attuned to spiritual things. I have no answer except that I know if you reach for your God a thousand times, a REAL BEING comes to meet you. He is completely alive. His voice sounds a certain way. His Spirit has a resonance. His Light is so familiar. He is not an ethereal fictitious character written with black ink on thousand year old pages. He — is — close, so reachable.

There is no lack of access to Him; all of our separation is lack of desire and discipline in reaching FOR Him.

And that was THE WAY. A true, genuine relationship from one soul to another.
It’s the answer I am looking to give to myself when I wonder how I got from pain to peace.

My own affidavit that God is in our cells, waiting for us to take look into our own DNA.

The more we practice PEACE, the more it becomes who we are. And soon, we get so tall, that a lot of waves roll in that we don’t even notice.

I am not sure what tomorrow will bring. Thankfully, I don’t need to know. There will definitely be more waves.

Yesterday there were four different people who expressed a unhappiness with me for different reasons. There were two phone calls of business emergencies, a total emotional fit from my daughter, and a twelve year old deeply unhappy I said no to him. Plus, I have a load of whites I haven’t washed for three days and I am totally out of underwear now. (That’s probably more than people want to know.)

There is going to be more waves…lol…I know that for sure.

They will come and go.
That’s what waves do.

I will always have the same question in front of me.

How do I want to experience this?
Who do I want TO BE while I am here?

I really do feel, that looking for the CENTER, the Highest response, and direction from the God of my understanding, is the ONLY answer there is ever going to be to these thousands of situations.

And the ONLY ONE required.

 

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Things Work Out

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Things Work Out

Love this little reminder that there’s always an answer.

Stillness is the partner of knowing. Knowing comes by feel, and we can’t get to knowing until we can calm down our thinking.

Trust. Deep breaths.

The way will appear.

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The Kingdom of God is Within You

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It no longer surprises me to read things like, “The kingdom of God is within you.”

If you believe that YOU ARE DIVINE and have a GOD-SELF inside of you, life is easier.

It’s more difficult to believe that you are unworthy and desperate to be good enough in God’s eyes.

Our plan was to plunge below our heavenly home, live away at earth school, experience everything WE ARE NOT, have a veil covering our minds so we know little outside of now, encounter opposition on every side–even from within our current nature, and be left to struggle day to day for survival (natural cause for stress built right into the fabric of the system)

and against these odds and limitations.. the GOD SELF (in embryo) would rise in us, and re-create what we already know deep within.

By CALLING it FORTH AGAIN (against opposition in and around us), we would accelerate our growth in a way that no other situation could equal.

We become stronger, more knowledgeable, and LEGIT–having REAL DATA, TRUE ABILITIES that took the form of something tangible in who we are, being earned with the street cred of EXPERIENCE.

This is a great plan. I love this plan.

It was the plan for your day today and it’s what’s on the agenda for tomorrow.

It is so much EASIER to believe this–that you have a God-self a process of wakening…than to scramble around on the ground looking for your worth.

Because from that knowledge, it is easier to rise.

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We Can Only Control Ourselves

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My husband and I had some mentoring on MINDFULNESS.

Even though we have a spirit, we also have an EGO MIND.

The ego mind has quick, emotional reactions always designed to protect itself, always in the position of being “right.”

MINDFULNESS teaches us to be AWARE of those knee-jerk reactions, but not believe they tell us the core truth and not to act them out.

When you are MINDFUL, you watch them pop up; you investigate your own responses.

Being aware of them allows you to get to the core truth faster; And choose responses aligned with your spiritual values of love and kindness.

What I learned the most from our training is to LIVE IN AWARENESS of my inner self at all times.

That awareness leads me to the truth and to respond with peace.

As I have control over myself–and my own responses to life–I have the only kind of control that works.

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Thankful for this Moment

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Last week my meditation teacher (& spiritual mentor) came to my house for our session and told me, “You’re always trying to get somewhere and your inability to fully appreciate this moment is why you have some of the dis-ease you’ve been telling me about.” I said, “Get out of my house.”

I laughed. He laughed too, because he knew I was joking. I was using humor to deflect momentarily from the fact that HE WAS RIGHT. Again. Then I said, “Well, if I just build my business a little, tiny, bit bigger (imagine me pressing my fingers to the size of an inch in the air) “I think I’ll finally be satisfied and feel that I’ve arrived. He smiled. Another joke.

I like his sense of humor and he likes the fact that I investigate every suggestion and consider it might be true.

I made this picture as a reminder and I admit, after our little chat I was definitely more mindful. I had moved appreciation to the forefront of my attention and I admit, a few times this week, I’ve fallen into a river of gratitude so deep, I thought to myself, “I have all have ever wanted and more.”

And joy was gushing.

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Always a Way

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We have access to Solutions.

Fear says there is no way, Light shows there is ALWAYS a way to a solution.

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Wake Up to a Calling

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The day I decided the only work I would do in the world was something that mattered, things changed for me.

I left a small mechanical life and went instead, for more depth, meaning, and pushing limits, mostly my own.

It was worth it.

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